i am a sell-out. i got a job this summer studying bugs. i was initially very excited, but then i realized that i'd be studying "pests" for a paper company so they can maximize their profits. i feel terrible. i don't want to be a part of this mess! the human race has already fucked up the earth enough, when are we going to learn to stop? haven't we learned that when we fuck with nature, it comes back to bite us in the ass ten times harder? the paper company's tree lot is full of monoclonal trees; mainly the ones that grow the fastest and produce the greatest yield. but of course, these are the ones that are most susceptible to pests. so they call in the scientists to study these pests, to see what we can do about it. agh. i don't want to be a part of it!!! i realized this when i started reading the research proposal; the author referred to the insects as "pests". i don't want to have that mindset! they're not "pests", they're just insects doin what they gotta do! they're only pests because they're fucking with somebody's profits. oy. lesson learned - don't fuck with a human being's money. fuck that shit. agh therefore, i am the biggest sellout because i really need a job this summer and nothing better came along (but i really like bugs!!), and it wouldn't look too bad on my resume....sell-out!! good thing there's no "sell-out" section on my resume. so i guess i'll just bumble through the summer pretending i don't know that i'm out there for the sake of somebody's profits, and the whole reason i'm out there is for pure scientific enlightenment, and nothing more. oy i wish the world really was that simple, people lived and did things without having profits on their minds. i just want to learn something for the sake of knowing it, damnit!