i like the sound of that.

by default. existence by default.

i exist the way i do merely because i really don't have any other option. all other options would require a passion and aggressiveness that hasn't been characteristic of me lately. i float around haphazardly like a water weed, feeding off of the giant pool of society. of course, sometimes i wonder what it would be like to live for something, to strive for a certain purpose. a scientific achievement perhaps, altruism or some moralistic ideal. i've always admired people that devote their lives to a cause. it seems that i am lower than the lowest animal, for even the common worms strives daily to live, motivated by its instinct that it must LIVE. it eats, sleeps, and shits because it wants to live. i, on the other hand, eat only becuase it gives me pleasure, sleep only when and because i am tired, and shit to relieve myself. i thus live

by default