http://www.meish.org/mayfly/

it's a lazy sunday afternoon, what can i say? been following too many links. stumbled across the Mayfly project, where people describe the past year in 20 words or less, inspired by the biography of a mayfly -

born. eat. shag. die.

mine'd probably go something like this

threw shit at fans. regretted it, ducked. laughed before they could. lied, lived, loved sorta ..."somethin like that". failed miserably.

What Famous Leader Are You?

muahahaha....

some thoughts on christmas...


"...remember the true meaning of Christmas - a distorted winter solstice festival that was hijacked by Christianity in an attempt to win over pagan tribespeople in Europe, that is now the preserve of business and corporate policy"

"Have a great Christmas ... unless you prefer the term "Winterval" or "Solstice" or something, in which case I merely wish you a 25th of December marginally less dull and empty than your indoctrinated minds."

haha

this pervasive silence is too much, my breath too loud, why does this bother me? if it's only a state of mind, i guess i should change my state of mind.

why do packages of gum say that they're "not a low calorie food" when there's only five calories per serving?

my chair has moulded to my ass. normally this is a comfort to me, but today it makes me feel lazy. when i stand up, the air rushes back into the cushion so righteously, indignant. sitting here waiting for inspiration to hit me. so many things to do, rushing around in my head but my body refuses. so how do you define productive?

and she's always right. i'd like to agree but it needs to be done because i want to, not becuase she wants it.

home. well, minnesota, parent's house. still don't feel like i can call any place home really.

three finals down, one to go. one last one two days from today and then i'm done. i've always thought i went about life regret-free, but this semester has just been one regret after another. shoulda woulda coulda, i spose. ooooo it burns. so many things i could have would have should have done. i'm an idiot. that's all there is to it. so sad that i never learn my lesson. roar.

I. AM. A. FUCK. UP. i can't get straight A's. i'm completely, inanely mediocre-ly AVERAGE. i have done absolutely nothing with my life.

procrastinating! had a paper due friday at noon, asked for extension since she was giving a lot of them, new due date was today 10am. started typing last night at 9pm, went to bed at 2am, got up this morning at 8am to finish, paper in ta's box by 10:03am. dear god i really need an a on that. cripes. and yeah, i've reached my explanation point capacity for today.

'There are millions who long for immortality yet don't know what to do on a rainy Sunday.'

thanksgiving break...let's just say i'm done with running around on one/two day trips across the country. traveling seems like such a waste of time. especially the way i do it. coming back to madison is such a low after being in nyc. it'd be so much fun to live there. so much color and life. people wise, that is. nature wise, it's so dead. guess i don't have mush more to say. had ramen and wontons for thanksgiving dinner. think i'm gonna stop celebrating thanksgiving. what cause for joy is there in the fact that white people came to this oh so great continent? eh. i spose the day's evolved into more than that, though. it's a celebration of thankfulness for everything, not just the annihilation of the natives. yep.